I’m tired so tired not a fan of this feeling that life is passing me by and my child grew an inch I swear while I was gone for four days in CA and sometimes I feel like when I am with him I am not really with him because my mind is always wandering [...]
I am aware that over the last few months my post count on this blog has dipped dramatically. So much of what I wrote about included the ins and outs of my dating life. The constant search for love, for a man, for “the one.” The good, the bad, and the ugly results of that [...]
Now that spring is slowly, hesitatingly emerging here in Washington, DC, I have a new habit. Each morning to and from work, I get off the bus and I walk. All in all, I’m probably walking 25 minutes each way, but it is wonderful because I’ve been pretty sedentary all winter.
In general I am full [...]
For most of my life I have been a very disorganized person. Mentally more than in other ways. While I have completed a lot of things I am extremely proud of, more often than not I tend to start projects and put them down. I have been known to abandon ideas, things, causes, other people, myself. I’ve always [...]
Reading Single Mom Seeking’s recent post about how confusing dating can be, all I can say is that I truly relate.
I always feel like I am doing it wrong, like I scare guys away with my intensity, with some needy vibe that I don’t even realize that I am giving off. I’ve concluded that [...]
Today I was reflecting on impermanence and how extraordinary it is and how when we realize, truly realize that everything in life is impermanent, how it can set us free.
This week I was in a hardened shell of anger and self-righteousness towards my ex. Then, with one apology, it all changed. With the willingness to [...]
First of all, I must announce that I am offically full of shit.
Despite recent meanderings that hinted to the contrary, I am not going to stop trying to meet someone (never mind if wisdom indicates that it would probably be a good thing for me to intentionally be on my own for a while). In fact, [...]
Last night was filled with nightmares. In one, I was out to dinner with my ex and his new wife. Everything was going relatively well until I went to the bathroom and came back finding them in mid-PDA. I flipped out, and this involved me cursing, shaking my fist at her, and giving them the finger [...]
My son and his father are quietly playing downstairs as I write this. They are drawing pictures together at the dining room table and I am staying out of their way as they re-establish their bond. Earlier in the morning, they were playing upstairs, loudly and boisterously, and H was throwing Sami around and doing [...]
Tonight I had a fairly awful talk with my ex. I started out simply by asking for some explanation of what has been up for the last 10 months, as well as some kind of reassurance that he was going to stick around this time and that he was really ready to come back into [...]
Welcome to this blog - my chronicle of the illuminating, character-building path of single parenthood. I'm making this up as I go along. My life is my practice, and my five year-old son is my greatest teacher.