separation Category

Ah, the bitter irony of this life. I was to have a full five days to myself while Sami was at his father’s. And what happens? The Snowpocalypse of 2009. All my plans to be a whirling dervish of activity, dashed.
It ended up being all good. I just so happened to have a wonderful house [...]

I hate the word “depression,” as I detest all clinical phrases. They serve to dehumanize and they also don’t get at what is really going on with people. A neat label does not begin to encapsulate the complexity of human existence, and I feel does it a disservice. But looking at the word depression in [...]

I’m tired so tired not a fan of this feeling that life is passing me by and my child grew an inch I swear while I was gone for four days in CA and sometimes I feel like when I am with him I am not really with him because my mind is always wandering [...]

Today I was reflecting on impermanence and how extraordinary it is and how when we realize, truly realize that everything in life is impermanent, how it can set us free.
This week I was in a hardened shell of anger and self-righteousness towards my ex.  Then, with one apology, it all changed.  With the willingness to [...]

I walked around all day today with a one-hundred pound sack of guilt and sadness slung over my shoulder. Sami went to daycare all day today, and then after just an hour and a half together, I left him with a sitter so I could go to my meditation class.
Guilt is a [...]

Somehow I manage to fritter away these Saturdays without Sami. Now that I am staying home with him, I feel the loss of him in a different way. It’s not quite so wrenching, not as raw as it was a few months ago, but still I don’t know quite what to do with [...]

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Welcome to this blog - my chronicle of the illuminating, character-building path of single parenthood. I'm making this up as I go along. My life is my practice, and my five year-old son is my greatest teacher.


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