First of all, I must announce that I am offically full of shit.
Despite recent meanderings that hinted to the contrary, I am not going to stop trying to meet someone (never mind if wisdom indicates that it would probably be a good thing for me to intentionally be on my own for a while). In fact, [...]
(This is a post that I wrote on and off through my stay in California, battling my grandmother’s virus-addled PC. Hope you don’t catch anything! - MamaDharma)
Tonight I read a stunning interview in The Sun Magazine (excerpted online but really worth reading in its entirety) with Kittissaro and Thanissara, a couple who lived as Buddhist monks [...]
Last night was filled with nightmares. In one, I was out to dinner with my ex and his new wife. Everything was going relatively well until I went to the bathroom and came back finding them in mid-PDA. I flipped out, and this involved me cursing, shaking my fist at her, and giving them the finger [...]
He doesn’t remember him.
When he walked in the door, there was no “Daddy!” No running to him. No recognition. Just a shyness.
“Who’s this, Sami?” I asked. ”Who’s this man?”
Periodically throughout the night, my ex tried to get Sami to call him by his name.
“You used to call me ‘Daddy,’” I heard him say [...]
I almost forgot to blog about my one year anniversary as a single parent, caught up as I was in the MoTH thing.
I can feel the visceral coolness of that early morning, sitting on the balcony in my ex’s apartment, our ninth wedding anniversary, November 25, 2007. We smoked a cigarette and he casually told [...]
Tonight I went out to dinner and a movie with the sweetest, cutest guy. I’m still smiling about it.
He didn’t pay for anything, but I forgave him that, since he was such completely charming company. We split a lovely Middle Eastern dinner. He spilled a lot of his rice down the front of his shirt, [...]
Oh, this morning was a bad morning. A bad, bad morning. And I was a bad mommy. A bad, bad mommy.
As usual, I did not allot enough time to get us ready to get out of the house. After rather frantically trying to bathe, dress, and feed myself, I woke Sami up and immediately started [...]
It’s been about a month that I have been doing the full-time work outside the home gig combined with the 24/7 single parenting gig. I love my job and the financial security it brings, but I still feel completely unacclimated to this new way of life. It feels like everything is speeding by at an [...]
I am getting seriously spoiled. A friend of mine who is a stay-at-home-mom (and her family) are staying with me temporarily while they house-hunt. Her husband is busy working and is basically never around.
Tonight, as I am on my way home after a long day at work, wondering how in the world I will have the [...]
Otherwise known as adventures in online dating…
Out of those 973 views on a particular online dating website that will not be named, I’ve had a few nibbles. Last Saturday night there was a date with a very interesting person, a humanitarian, originally from Southeast Asia. A shy, mad scientist-type who unfortunately did not have a clue about [...]
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