I believe that in this world all matter is interconnected - what influences the inner influences the outer, and vice-versa. My new tattoo is a perfect example of this principle.
I feel as if I have undergone an initiation of sorts. I am marked for life. So many experiences have marked me for life in the [...]
Today would have been my mother’s 59th birthday. I miss you, Gail Susan Harris, 13 years since you passed on. Poet, priestess, visionary, artist, friend, lover, and mother - you live in my heart always. As the lines to one of my many poems written in your honor said:
You breathed out what was left of [...]
March is already here, arriving with a fierce blanket of snow.
Life is speeding by so, we did not yet get a chance to play in it. If it had been up to me, I would have taken a snow day, but work called, so off we went, two hours late.
I looked out the window [...]
The metamorphosis. It’s happening. I feel as if I am going through some kind of awakening, down to my DNA. Old, long-buried loves are being resurrected in my heart, and it feels extraordinary. Recently, I’ve gotten obsessed with GarageBand, which I’ve just discovered on my new Mac (no, I swear I don’t work for Apple). [...]
Ever since I was a rebellious teenager, I have wanted to get a tattoo.
Luckily for me, I did not get tattooed at any point along the way. It’s likely that I would now be cringing at what I would have picked then. I was a “goth” as a teen and it probably would been something [...]
My son and his father are quietly playing downstairs as I write this. They are drawing pictures together at the dining room table and I am staying out of their way as they re-establish their bond. Earlier in the morning, they were playing upstairs, loudly and boisterously, and H was throwing Sami around and doing [...]
December 10, 2008
How do I love thee, Sami G?
Let me count the ways.
Let me start this 3rd birthday tribute by declaring that you are the sweetest being I’ve ever known. I still have many days when I look at you in wonder and amazement. I can’t believe you’re my son. How did I get the [...]
Why is it that I keep attracting men who “poof?”
I can’t bring myself to go into the details of what happened this weekend. It is still too painful, too raw, too embarrassing. I don’t know if I can even go there at all on this blog. I plan to do some private writing to begin [...]
Oh, my. On days like these I am reminded of how fragile I can be sometimes.
All it takes is “a thing” to get me spiraling. And there’s almost always “a thing.” Life is full of them.
Work was hard today. I can’t really write about it because I feel weird writing about work stuff on this [...]
“Mommy, I so love you!” declares Sami at least once a day.
Does he know what this means? I don’t know, nor do I care, because it’s just wonderful to hear. He says it joyfully, authentically.
I’d like to think he’s picked it up from me. I tell him I love him all the darn time. I [...]
Welcome to this blog - my chronicle of the illuminating, character-building path of single parenthood. I'm making this up as I go along. My life is my practice, and my five year-old son is my greatest teacher.